ben's leaving

Ben, my teammate is leaving for australia TODAY!
Luckily i went for his farewell party coz i can't send him off today coz of tuition.
I really wish him all the best and i know he will do well in aust.
Well i've sort of wrote wat i wanted to say to ben in the card i gave him plus i said what i wanted to say to him at his party..
But wat stayed with me after the farewell party was how proud his parents were of him when they gave thier speech abt their son...and i think they shd be too:)

The mths seems to pass by very fast..we're getting our results soon n when i think of wat i've done over the mths after As, it seems like i've done nothing productive..well i only had a 3wk job assignment at popular bookshop at fajar sec n giving tuition to p4 while other had jobs..though i will be starting work the coming thurs at cpf building, i hope it'd be ok n not so boring..after hearing frm terri her first day of work at the same place im working, i sure hope i'll be able to make frenz..

it juz popped up in my mind

well it's been ages since i've last updated my blog...was too lazy i guess..
after reading zhou's blog where he wrote some dboat cheers, a cheer suddenly popped up in my head n i felt like jotting it down..im sure AC Dragons are familiar with it n it goes:

We are Ac Dragons
Rowing for our school
Once in our lives
2 yrs of our times
Have u ever wondered?
Why do we row?
Because we love our school and we want it to be gd, to be gd, to be gd..

I think there's a similar cheer dat Ted taught us but i forgot. If anybody remembers, do tell me..I miss those cheers:(

Prelims Are Over!!:)

yeah prelims are over!!but den there's still As..haiz..anyway went to cut my hair at far east today..well i don think my hair looks dat much diff except the fringe..but i dunno why my mum always has a prob wif my hair..saying dat it curls out bcoz its too layered n blah blah..i mean my hair is like dat wat n she complains it still looks the same even after the haircut..i mean how diff can ur hair get unless u do some treatment to it like rebonding or something rite..watever..
formal dinner's next week so hmm i guess i shall do some window shopping..
now dat prelims r over..i wonder when n how im gonna start revision..

prelims

so far prelims has been super tough n hard..i think im gonna get like 3FFFs..so much for studying..im gonna do the worst in my class..i find every paper tough..i wonder when im gonna be smart..
i recently went for this talk by Dr Rejabian..he's smart..well he has gd genes..both his parents are principals of universities..anyway his talk was abt eating right to be smart..it seems like most food are bad..i wonder how he can follow dat diet..well i used to be able to follow the no fried diet..i think i still can but when i was training it was diff n anyway now i've to study hard my mum wants me to eat a balanced diet..but most meat do use oil to cook it..but at least my mum has been using canola oil whuch the doc say is gd..so i hope my body isnt badly filled wif bad fats..
oh the doc say dat all teachers dat he asked said dat a student's eyes are wat teachers look at on first impression to noe whether dat student is smart or not..somehow i had guessed dat..he said gd students walk into the exam hall with confidence..
den i think im a lousy student..i don think i've much confidence in myself..
but den my mum juz recently told me dat my chinese grandfather(my mum's dad) told her dat by looking at my eyes when i was juz born, he said dat im a clever girl though most would tend to say dat my eyes are v small when they first see me..
well at least dat gave me a bit of confidence in myself..somehow now i'll think of wat my grandfather said when i feel down..but i've yet to feel dat im smart..

well mayb i nd to work hard to be smart..so i shd start telling myself to buck up for As..

a new saturday

today's the first sat after a v long time dat i could wake up late n stayed home the whole day
yest was the last of our canoeing nats..we got 4th unexpectedly..in my mind before they announced the results...i was thinking dat we wont be getting anything dis yr..felt v sad thinking abt it..our coach worked a lot harder dis yr den our last yr's coach n yet we wont be getting gd placing..
but surprisingly we got 4th!! thanx to weil n margy..congrats weil esp for getting 1st:) the guys got 4th too compared to 5th last yr..congrats too to the guys..
i wish i were still a j1 dis yr..the j1s r lucky to get a new coach compared to mine when i was j1..ted conc on the j1s..the j1s dis yr r gd n would be better than us seniors next yr wif guidance frm ted..
the whole day i kept thinking of my canoeing memories..i feel like i want to relive the past..
oh ya me n jia only got into semis:( we got 4th for semis..though we had bad tilts n it shd be mostly my fault..i knew i tried my best during the race..everything seemed to past by so fast during the race..i only remember the feeling of pulling a lot of water..the most dat i've ever pulled..every stroke i pulled i felt i caught a lot of water n i felt gd abt it..
but still i was upset when ted said we progressed but it wasnt really enough..i wish dat jia had come more often to row together..mayb dat would have hepled us improve at the right time..coz most of the time i find myself rowing wif other ppl besides jia esp during hols be it last yr or dis yr..well anyway its all over..
but part of me feel like coming back..mayb i'll help out next yr..but inside of me feel like taking up dat sport in the furture though i've told myself before sas well as my fam dat dis yr would be the last..i feel like i've nt been stretched to my potential..i noe im nt gd but there's dis yearning of being able to do better..well i'll let the future decide..
going to pass down to juniors soon or at least we've sort of stepped down to conc on exams..feel so sad to be leaving the team..memories of my 2 yrs in canoeing keep replaying in my head..time past by so fast..
well canoeing has been a gd experience n one dat i'd nv ever forget..

Tmw's last training

man tmw we'll be our last water prac!! its so fast!! n there's still improvements to be made..yest dominic our grand senior came down to give me n jia extra sessions since he'd be down training wif nus..he told jia to change her paddle to a shorter one coz she cant control dat paddle length..jia tried a 210 n she felt better..too bad we only knew abt it last session n tmw nt sure if she can borrow 210 a nt..we plan to modify our race plan after some advice frm dominic..we have yet to try it tmw though..
i learnt dat we shd straighten our arms when pulling in water so dat it'll force us to twist,kick n use our body to row..i mean ted did tell us before but it seem clearer now coz he used other rowers as examples..oh i've to remember to raise my arms esp my left arm..
oh margy's ex crush help us lift our boat frm the pontoon on thurs..dat was nice of him:)
well hope tmw would be a gd n fruitful last training..i really really hope dat we'll be able to make some improvements tmw..oh n if we're lucky,jia can borrow a 210 paddle either frm acsi or the nus girl..

consecutive trainings

yeah i completed a whole wekk of consecutive trainings frm mon to sat:)feel quite accomplished..break personal record i think..for dis yr at least..quite tiring but it was ok..for the sake of nats i muz push on..too bad jia couldn train wif me consecutively the whole week..she injured her thigh n was sick today..sighs..muz take care of myself..a lot of ppl falling sick..im afraid dat since i haven fallen sick now..i might fall sick at the wrong time like near nats or prelims or worst As juz like i feel sick during Os..oh wells time to up my Vit C frm now on..
Today i rowed K2 wif weil..feel kinda bad dat she cant train properly coz i needed someone to row wif..it was quite ok..obviously im comfortable coz balance was not a prob..
but sprints wasnt great..i did 1000m sprint though..my first time doing..it's quite diff frm 500m coz its more of muscle endurance i feel where as for 500m i feel its v cardio n i breathe v hard after the sprint..
timing wasnt dat gd..the best was 2:30..my best wif jia was 2:38..i was thinking dat if im having dat timing while rowing wif weil,how to do even better wif jia? i mean weil's stronger rite..dat means mayb there's a prob wif me..me n jia were aiming to hit for 2:20 coz ted says its the average or smthg..OH NO!! im getting even more worried now..
hopefully it was oso coz during the sprint wif weil i forgot to twist..i kept focusing on pulling hard dats why he said dat i was using my arms..i was oso conc on race plan..usually it's jia who calls for last burst.
im sooo forgetful..ted has reminded me soo many times to twist..Yikes!! n i still forget:(
ooh but he said i was getting it during resistance..it was raining very heavily while doing resistance..was afraid dat there'd be lightning when we're at 1000m mark but fortunately the thunder n lightning only came while we were packing up..
well to sum the whole week..i really appreciate ted coming everyday to give extra sessions to me..since im down everyday,so is he...i really hope dat we wont let him down during nats n waste his time n effort dat he has dedicated to us in hope for us to do well..

Dragon Boat Nats

only 2 races n my dragon boat season is over:( well i rowed my heart out for the comp n it would be a memory i'd nv forget..the feeling of wanting so much to take nj n beat dem..the feeling of hoping every stroke u pull, u'll pull away frm nj..the fire,the passion,the aggresion in the boat before n during the last sprint..before i knew it,the race was over..it ended so fast..i wish it would have been more..the guys said if we were given more dist, we might have taken nj..

oh wells..we tried our very best..sometimes u noe u rowed ur very best but when something meets below ur expectation,u'll still have dat disappointment:(..i still have dat feeling of argh why couldnt we have taken nj? wat had gone wrong? why cant we break their record of not being first, for once..why do they always have to win when winning doesnt mean so much to dem as it would to us..arrgghh..

but wat was worst we expected to get either 1st or 2nd at the very least but yet we got 3rd..i noe we shouldn compare wif last year..but to lose out to even their juniors was very upsetting..like weil said..is the best dat we did,our really best or could we have done better? well we can nv turn back time so at the v least i shd juz console myself dat we tried n furthermore we din have many trainings..

i guess now i noe why i usually don set my goals so high..the fear of dissapointment n not meeting my expectations..sometimes i think it's better to set lower goals so dat u wont get dissapointed but on the other hand u'll feel even better if u do better than u expect..

i think it's the lack of confidence in me too..weil said dat we shd aim higher coz we'll get something slightly lower..but if u aim so low,u'll get even lower..well but i guess no matter wat ur goals n expectations r,they shd be realistic.. which reminds me dat canoeing nats r so near..do me n jia have time to improve..i dunno if jia is worried but i surely am..i don want to waste my 2 years getting nothing..mayb she has confidence dat we can do it..but if we don work hard frm now, how to get wat we want..we haven rowed together for like 2 wks!!! i think we better come for as many extra sessions wif ted if we want to do well..im willing to do dat n i hope jia will too..