juz me:)

ben's leaving

2006-02-12T23:12:00.000-08:00

Ben, my teammate is leaving for australia TODAY!
Luckily i went for his farewell party coz i can't send him off today coz of tuition.
I really wish him all the best and i know he will do well in aust.
Well i've sort of wrote wat i wanted to say to ben in the card i gave him plus i said what i wanted to say to him at his party..
But wat stayed with me after the farewell party was how proud his parents were of him when they gave thier speech abt their son...and i think they shd be too:)

The mths seems to pass by very fast..we're getting our results soon n when i think of wat i've done over the mths after As, it seems like i've done nothing productive..well i only had a 3wk job assignment at popular bookshop at fajar sec n giving tuition to p4 while other had jobs..though i will be starting work the coming thurs at cpf building, i hope it'd be ok n not so boring..after hearing frm terri her first day of work at the same place im working, i sure hope i'll be able to make frenz..

it juz popped up in my mind

2006-02-12T23:00:00.000-08:00

well it's been ages since i've last updated my blog...was too lazy i guess..
after reading zhou's blog where he wrote some dboat cheers, a cheer suddenly popped up in my head n i felt like jotting it down..im sure AC Dragons are familiar with it n it goes:

We are Ac Dragons
Rowing for our school
Once in our lives
2 yrs of our times
Have u ever wondered?
Why do we row?
Because we love our school and we want it to be gd, to be gd, to be gd..

I think there's a similar cheer dat Ted taught us but i forgot. If anybody remembers, do tell me..I miss those cheers:(

Prelims Are Over!!:)

2005-08-30T23:40:00.000-07:00

yeah prelims are over!!but den there's still As..haiz..anyway went to cut my hair at far east today..well i don think my hair looks dat much diff except the fringe..but i dunno why my mum always has a prob wif my hair..saying dat it curls out bcoz its too layered n blah blah..i mean my hair is like dat wat n she complains it still looks the same even after the haircut..i mean how diff can ur hair get unless u do some treatment to it like rebonding or something rite..watever..
formal dinner's next week so hmm i guess i shall do some window shopping..
now dat prelims r over..i wonder when n how im gonna start revision..

prelims

2005-08-23T22:00:00.000-07:00

so far prelims has been super tough n hard..i think im gonna get like 3FFFs..so much for studying..im gonna do the worst in my class..i find every paper tough..i wonder when im gonna be smart..
i recently went for this talk by Dr Rejabian..he's smart..well he has gd genes..both his parents are principals of universities..anyway his talk was abt eating right to be smart..it seems like most food are bad..i wonder how he can follow dat diet..well i used to be able to follow the no fried diet..i think i still can but when i was training it was diff n anyway now i've to study hard my mum wants me to eat a balanced diet..but most meat do use oil to cook it..but at least my mum has been using canola oil whuch the doc say is gd..so i hope my body isnt badly filled wif bad fats..
oh the doc say dat all teachers dat he asked said dat a student's eyes are wat teachers look at on first impression to noe whether dat student is smart or not..somehow i had guessed dat..he said gd students walk into the exam hall with confidence..
den i think im a lousy student..i don think i've much confidence in myself..
but den my mum juz recently told me dat my chinese grandfather(my mum's dad) told her dat by looking at my eyes when i was juz born, he said dat im a clever girl though most would tend to say dat my eyes are v small when they first see me..
well at least dat gave me a bit of confidence in myself..somehow now i'll think of wat my grandfather said when i feel down..but i've yet to feel dat im smart..

well mayb i nd to work hard to be smart..so i shd start telling myself to buck up for As..

a new saturday

2005-07-24T01:38:00.000-07:00

today's the first sat after a v long time dat i could wake up late n stayed home the whole day
yest was the last of our canoeing nats..we got 4th unexpectedly..in my mind before they announced the results...i was thinking dat we wont be getting anything dis yr..felt v sad thinking abt it..our coach worked a lot harder dis yr den our last yr's coach n yet we wont be getting gd placing..
but surprisingly we got 4th!! thanx to weil n margy..congrats weil esp for getting 1st:) the guys got 4th too compared to 5th last yr..congrats too to the guys..
i wish i were still a j1 dis yr..the j1s r lucky to get a new coach compared to mine when i was j1..ted conc on the j1s..the j1s dis yr r gd n would be better than us seniors next yr wif guidance frm ted..
the whole day i kept thinking of my canoeing memories..i feel like i want to relive the past..
oh ya me n jia only got into semis:( we got 4th for semis..though we had bad tilts n it shd be mostly my fault..i knew i tried my best during the race..everything seemed to past by so fast during the race..i only remember the feeling of pulling a lot of water..the most dat i've ever pulled..every stroke i pulled i felt i caught a lot of water n i felt gd abt it..
but still i was upset when ted said we progressed but it wasnt really enough..i wish dat jia had come more often to row together..mayb dat would have hepled us improve at the right time..coz most of the time i find myself rowing wif other ppl besides jia esp during hols be it last yr or dis yr..well anyway its all over..
but part of me feel like coming back..mayb i'll help out next yr..but inside of me feel like taking up dat sport in the furture though i've told myself before sas well as my fam dat dis yr would be the last..i feel like i've nt been stretched to my potential..i noe im nt gd but there's dis yearning of being able to do better..well i'll let the future decide..
going to pass down to juniors soon or at least we've sort of stepped down to conc on exams..feel so sad to be leaving the team..memories of my 2 yrs in canoeing keep replaying in my head..time past by so fast..
well canoeing has been a gd experience n one dat i'd nv ever forget..

Tmw's last training

2005-07-15T23:30:00.000-07:00

man tmw we'll be our last water prac!! its so fast!! n there's still improvements to be made..yest dominic our grand senior came down to give me n jia extra sessions since he'd be down training wif nus..he told jia to change her paddle to a shorter one coz she cant control dat paddle length..jia tried a 210 n she felt better..too bad we only knew abt it last session n tmw nt sure if she can borrow 210 a nt..we plan to modify our race plan after some advice frm dominic..we have yet to try it tmw though..
i learnt dat we shd straighten our arms when pulling in water so dat it'll force us to twist,kick n use our body to row..i mean ted did tell us before but it seem clearer now coz he used other rowers as examples..oh i've to remember to raise my arms esp my left arm..
oh margy's ex crush help us lift our boat frm the pontoon on thurs..dat was nice of him:)
well hope tmw would be a gd n fruitful last training..i really really hope dat we'll be able to make some improvements tmw..oh n if we're lucky,jia can borrow a 210 paddle either frm acsi or the nus girl..

consecutive trainings

2005-06-26T01:15:00.000-07:00

yeah i completed a whole wekk of consecutive trainings frm mon to sat:)feel quite accomplished..break personal record i think..for dis yr at least..quite tiring but it was ok..for the sake of nats i muz push on..too bad jia couldn train wif me consecutively the whole week..she injured her thigh n was sick today..sighs..muz take care of myself..a lot of ppl falling sick..im afraid dat since i haven fallen sick now..i might fall sick at the wrong time like near nats or prelims or worst As juz like i feel sick during Os..oh wells time to up my Vit C frm now on..
Today i rowed K2 wif weil..feel kinda bad dat she cant train properly coz i needed someone to row wif..it was quite ok..obviously im comfortable coz balance was not a prob..
but sprints wasnt great..i did 1000m sprint though..my first time doing..it's quite diff frm 500m coz its more of muscle endurance i feel where as for 500m i feel its v cardio n i breathe v hard after the sprint..
timing wasnt dat gd..the best was 2:30..my best wif jia was 2:38..i was thinking dat if im having dat timing while rowing wif weil,how to do even better wif jia? i mean weil's stronger rite..dat means mayb there's a prob wif me..me n jia were aiming to hit for 2:20 coz ted says its the average or smthg..OH NO!! im getting even more worried now..
hopefully it was oso coz during the sprint wif weil i forgot to twist..i kept focusing on pulling hard dats why he said dat i was using my arms..i was oso conc on race plan..usually it's jia who calls for last burst.
im sooo forgetful..ted has reminded me soo many times to twist..Yikes!! n i still forget:(
ooh but he said i was getting it during resistance..it was raining very heavily while doing resistance..was afraid dat there'd be lightning when we're at 1000m mark but fortunately the thunder n lightning only came while we were packing up..
well to sum the whole week..i really appreciate ted coming everyday to give extra sessions to me..since im down everyday,so is he...i really hope dat we wont let him down during nats n waste his time n effort dat he has dedicated to us in hope for us to do well..

Dragon Boat Nats

2005-06-12T00:00:00.000-07:00

only 2 races n my dragon boat season is over:( well i rowed my heart out for the comp n it would be a memory i'd nv forget..the feeling of wanting so much to take nj n beat dem..the feeling of hoping every stroke u pull, u'll pull away frm nj..the fire,the passion,the aggresion in the boat before n during the last sprint..before i knew it,the race was over..it ended so fast..i wish it would have been more..the guys said if we were given more dist, we might have taken nj..

oh wells..we tried our very best..sometimes u noe u rowed ur very best but when something meets below ur expectation,u'll still have dat disappointment:(..i still have dat feeling of argh why couldnt we have taken nj? wat had gone wrong? why cant we break their record of not being first, for once..why do they always have to win when winning doesnt mean so much to dem as it would to us..arrgghh..

but wat was worst we expected to get either 1st or 2nd at the very least but yet we got 3rd..i noe we shouldn compare wif last year..but to lose out to even their juniors was very upsetting..like weil said..is the best dat we did,our really best or could we have done better? well we can nv turn back time so at the v least i shd juz console myself dat we tried n furthermore we din have many trainings..

i guess now i noe why i usually don set my goals so high..the fear of dissapointment n not meeting my expectations..sometimes i think it's better to set lower goals so dat u wont get dissapointed but on the other hand u'll feel even better if u do better than u expect..

i think it's the lack of confidence in me too..weil said dat we shd aim higher coz we'll get something slightly lower..but if u aim so low,u'll get even lower..well but i guess no matter wat ur goals n expectations r,they shd be realistic.. which reminds me dat canoeing nats r so near..do me n jia have time to improve..i dunno if jia is worried but i surely am..i don want to waste my 2 years getting nothing..mayb she has confidence dat we can do it..but if we don work hard frm now, how to get wat we want..we haven rowed together for like 2 wks!!! i think we better come for as many extra sessions wif ted if we want to do well..im willing to do dat n i hope jia will too..

Ntional Women C'ships 29/6

2005-06-02T22:35:00.000-07:00

me n jia took part in k2 500m n 250m..weil n margy oso took part in 500m n geraldine n qiu yi took part in the same 250m as us..hmm well its like sort of expected for margy n weil to win of course n do better den us..weil n margy even beat the scf pair..
me n jia din get into semis for 500m..i think it was quite close but oh wells..but balance was lousy..if we had not tilted we would have gotten into semis i think..but balance has been off the whole wk..felt dat the boat quite rocky..dunno why..mayb coz ted ask me to twist more n extend forward so it sort of distracts me coz im nt used to it..mayb oso more power but nv kick appropriately so the boat goes off balance..
haiz but ted says i shd be comfortable wif balance now but im still nt.. dats why during the sprint i couldn really twist much n extend coz i was afraid of balance..i guess i muz be more daring..but dat was a competition so i dare nt risk it..but i'll try my best during trainings now..
our 250m was surprisingly better as in balance..the semis was the best i guess..

weil's race v exciting..she competed wif the scf gal..it was so close..first time i saw weil lost to somebody n got 2nd but she did her Pb..she prob lost coz the scf gal used an advantage kayak..haha..weil is superb man..
audrey got 3rd too n it was her first time competing..she's gd..congrats to weil, margy n audrey!!

canoeing camp

2005-06-02T22:30:00.000-07:00

we had a canoeing camp wif the juniors on 31/5 to 1/6..well it was quite fun though a lot of ppl got sick..learnt some new games n interacted wif the juniors more..the main idea of the camp was to bond wif the juniors..hmm well it seems dat some seniors overbonded wif juniors(grins)..too bad i couldnt attend last year's seniors camp which would have been more fun..oh well's it was the first time i stayed overnight in sch so it was a new experience for me..i wish we could have more camps:)

Lonely:(

2005-05-27T22:50:00.000-07:00

today as i look at my old frenz blog i suddenly felt quite lonely n left out..frenz whom i was very close to, suddenly seem to have drifted away frm me as they got closer together..well its not their fault coz well we're in different schs n besides i have a tight schedule due to my commitments..
even my current frenz seem not so close to me..i don blame dem coz i'd leave dem during recess to do pull-ups..n i wasnt involved in the drama production,which seem to have bonded dem closer,coz it always clashes wif my canoeing comp or training..
its hard to divide my time btwn my frenz n my team mates..like if im hanging out wif my classmates n den i see my teammates..i dunno who i should go to..
though since i train wif my team mates i tend to go to dem when i see dem..i feel guilty for abondoning dem but sometimes i feel dat they wont miss me(not dat im saying my team mates would), but i feel more belonged to my team mates..mayb coz we share the same passion..
i think canoeing requires a lot of commitment..i think u have to make a lot of sacrifices to be in the team..
dats why i wonder whether i'd still have frenz after i graduate..the tought of having no frenz makes me feel lonely n lost..to whom should i turn to when i have problems?
when i don train wif my team mates anymore,would i still be close to dem? would my frenz abandon me juz like i sort of abandoned dem?
the thought of it makes me feel so sad n lonely:(

national juniors c'ships

2005-05-02T02:19:00.000-07:00

well its been like a wk past since we had our national juniors c'ships..well im updating my blog coz nadim keep saying i nv update my blog for soo long(which is true) though..hmm nats jnrs was not bad..the senior gals (me,weil,jia n margy) rowed k4 n got 1st..YEAH! my first gold in canoeing!!we beat RJC n the Thai ppl...
me n jia oso did our PB in 500m..2:37min..well its quite slow lah but its an improvement for us..we felt great coz we rowed our best though we din quialify for finals..it was unexpected dat we got into semis..well now me n jia's aim is to clock 2:20 min..we nd to work on our middle parts which means endurance..i guess we should up rotation during lapping..Lets work towards it partner!!
i think overall the team did quite well..nadim n ben got 1st!! margy got 2nd n weil as usual 1st!! congrats guys n gals!! really proud of u ppl!! (hugs)
im sure if we work hard we'll do better during Nats...LAI AH AC!!

SDBA Finals

2005-04-03T18:40:00.000-07:00

SDBA was over for quite some time but anyways i forgot to update my blog again..so juz to update abt the finals..me n jia got third for t2-500m..yeah! but our boat collided wif srjc or should i say they banged into us first n was in our lane frm wat i saw..we appealed but it din get thru..well ted said the judges were perpetually blind..haha..oh wells anyway we still got a medal so ted owes us a mean..yippee..after finals we had sji at denise's house..it was soo nice..her pool is sooo big..too bad din bring swim suit..sji was ok..had a bit of interrogation n played tennis..oh some juniors said dat i was the nicest senior but i beg to differ..they haven the seen the other side of me i guess..was late when i got home n there was sch the nxt day:(bummer..
ooh k2-500m got 4th but was still happy abt it..was the best sprint we ever had..hey at least we din capsized..but too bad luck wasnt on our side..some of our teammates capped unexpectedly:(

the nxt wk we had db at mac ritchie..again we collided wif ngee ann poly..but we got into semis..quite surprising considering our seniors din really train..too bad we din get into finals but hey at least it was a gd race:)

well we've finally shifted to mac ritchie..it was tiring to shift boats..my first time some sort shifting house..

yest had our first real training at mac ritchie..rowed 18km! so long nv train long dist n furthermore row in flat water..so it was tiring but it was meant for us to get used to the water..well but it was quite gd rowing..din have to worry much abt balance n i could concentrate more on technique..ooh we did our first fart leks..was tiring but new experience for us..ted said our fart leks was the same as weil normal lapping(wow for weil)..so we muz up for our normal lapping n make it like our fart leks..

well gonna have junior championships soon..so lets work hard AC!!!

SDBA heats

2005-03-16T23:00:00.000-08:00

hey..i noe i haven wrote in for a really really long time..well din feel like blogging..was trying to go to chong's blog but couldn so decided to write in..
13 march..had both k2 n t2 500m on the same day..we got into straight finals for t2(yeah!) though me n jia din have much practice..i guess the t1 trainings i had w/o jia helped me row better in a t2..
den surprisingly we got into semis for k2 though our balance was like shit..they said there was a lot of heart stopping moments but me n jia were kind of used to it redi..to me it was hilarious dat we got into semis coz got 1 boat capsized..balance was terrible lah..i kept thinking when is the race gonna end during the race coz balance was uncontrollable..but after learning dat we qualified for semis, it worries me more coz i've to go thru again the horrible experience if balance was gonna be bad again dis sat..today's water prac wasnt gd n i really felt hopeless..din feel like competing in k2 dis sat..afraid of the embarrassment i'll feel if our boat keep tilting n tilting n everybody sees it..ppl muz be thinking how come balance so bad even after 1 yr experience..but den again i shouldn be thinking abt wat others would think..funny dat today ted told us dat me n jia have gained confidence after getting into semis for k2 when we felt like shit today:(
i feel so frustrated coz i tried to follow chong's advise of kicking but it still din work..when in a sprint somehow i dunno wat my legs r doing:( i hope the water conditions dis sat would be gd n our stability is there..i really really hope..
I hope dat we will achieve something dis sunday for t2..i noe i really want it..to prove to others or to myself dat i can achieve smthg for the team..i wish all the best to our AC team..LET'S GO JIA! LET'S BRING BACK SOMETHING ON SUN! LET'S GO AC! WE CAN DO IT!

Hari Raya Visiting Wif ACJC

2004-11-23T11:25:00.000-08:00

Yest had land training in the morn..n it ended a bit late like 1 plus when i thought it'd end by 1130 or 12..promised the mly ppl dat i'd be back by 1 plus but instead i was still at buaona vista at 130..so they had to wait for me like haf an hour under my block..i had to run most of the way from the mrt to home..so tiring..furthermore after training..i was smelly n sweating all over like mad..so the mly gang had to wait for me to shower n get redi..luckily there was fried rice for dem so at least they have something to do while i got redi..man i was rushing all over the house to serve dem n get redi fast as well..sorry for the lousy guest treatment guys..din really entertain u guys..n thanx azad for washing the dishes n joking wif my granny..so surprised my granny was in a gd mood n was quite friendly to the mly gang..
anyway din really go to dat many houses..only cikgu najmah's house, sufiyan's, lin's n azad's..but i had a gd time lah..if it was the dunearn gang we would have gone like 13 houses..rushing here n there..too bad i wont be going out wif the dunearn gang dis yr coz i'll be in bintan..
wont forget the jalan raya dis yr coz of smthg dat happen dat i wont say here..anyway i got a lift home frm my dad's fren..luckily man coz im dead tired n lazy to take the train home..
anyway i'll be leaving for bintan tmw..have to start packing now..later gonna meet terri at east coast...looking forward to seeing the 4e1 peeps at east coast later;)

Consecutive Trainings

2004-11-18T00:00:00.000-08:00

training was shiong dis wk..muz be bcoz kapadia not fasting redi den turn crazy..haha..but after all we nd a crazy capt to push us ritez..tues kallang was closed..so kapadia decided to do crazy land program coz mon miss land training..did 5544332211 for warm ups..was ok to me..after dat had to run frm kallang to east coast..nv run dat route before..well after not running for like a mth coz fasting, my stamina dropped even lower den it alredi was..so i juz died lah..lagged behind sooo far..poor jia had to run wif me..haiz..dis isnt gd..i muz work on my runs coz when juniors caome in nxt yr n i lag behind during runs,it would be damn embarassing..so dats why i ran on wed abt 2.4 km wif jia before training..it was super lousy..took 14 mins..cant believe it..mayb coz i din really push myself coz i felt like shitting while running n had cramps..mayb oso coz our legs were stiff frm running the day before..anyway after running on tues, had to do 3 sets 4 pull ups, 1.30 n 2 mins dry rowing n 2 sets 50 inclined sit ups.. the sit up was so inclined..my thighs hurt more den my abs..
after dat in the aft had db..it was ok lah..but the nxt day..whole body really ache..den still had optional training..jia n i did hard 10s along the shore..wasnt dat gd..so worried..when r we gonna get our balance rite..sighs..
after dat still had facilitation den got piano..wah shagged man..
but today they had training n i miss it:(
so not fair dat su yi was excused for band prac..den dat time i ask to be excused for training she din allow!!(fuming)
anyway i've to start packing for bintan dis wk coz nxt wk i'll be busy...

Ramadhan Dis Yr

2004-11-13T00:10:00.000-08:00

Ramadhan dis yr would be unforgettable..dis yr ramadhan falls rite on my bdae dats 15/10..besides dat i'll be in camp on my bdae n i strat fasting in camp..the first nite was the only nite dat i woke up in the morn to eat..the remaining 2 nites in camp i couldn wake up..
it wa svery challenging for me during camp..esp the second day of fasting..it was becoz of the 14km walk..it was super challenging ..after finishing the walk we were supposed to do situational games..i felt very hot inside n i couldn stand still..so i ask to be excused frm the situational games dat was played outdoors..i really felt like breaking fast..kept thinking like the camp is once in a lifetime..i can still pay back my fast wat..but den again i bear thru more den haf a day so i shouldn gave up..i juz kept pouring water on me..man the day was very long for me..mayb coz we start the day v early..i kept longing for afternoon to come so dat i could drink..water esp cold, had nv tasted so gd to me..
after the whole camp i was so glad dat i managed to go thru it while fasting..
den training was another challenge for me.. i kept getting headaches whenever i did push ups..after gym, there was circuits..i always felt like giving an excuse so dat i wont have to do circuits but somehow i still push myself to do it..
everytime after gym n circuits i'll feel v shagged n sleepy..mayb coz of low sugar level..
during rowing, my mouth would be v dry..i'll be thirsty n tired n dat wears my patience..well i still managed to survive thru trainings w/o water..YEAH!

Dis supposed to be holy mth, i fought wif my parents twice..i think the worst quarrels..first wif my mum..den wif my dad recently..we're still not really toking now..he juz scolded me again juz now for stepping on the sofa..well if i walk in front of him den i'll block him watching tv wat..Wat The CRAP lah..have been like swearing at him dis mth..i noe its wrong of me to do dat but my dad is really testing my patience!! ARGH!! He's so biased also!!! CANT STAND HIM!!!
Dis Ramadhen has been full of ups n downs for me..i hope dat my dad would tok to me after asking for forgiveness frm him tmw..i guess i got his genes..both of us v hot headed n not willing to tok to each other first..well wish me luck..hope dat everything would be alrite tmw..

Bought A Present:)

2004-11-06T23:18:00.000-08:00

Margy's bdae is long overdue..now den getting a present for her..sorry margy..wasnt free..anyway i some sort chose the present after pursuading ling ling to get dat coz the other thing couldnt fit..(cant say wat the thing is coz haven margy her present)..den we had to pursuade the guys to contribute to the present coz if its only the gals team den it would be a bit exp for each of us to pay..well luckily at least most of the guys agreed cept BEN...he claims dat how come the guys have to pay for gurls present but we gurls nv buy guys present..well we would have contributed if the guys bought a present for each other in the first place..so its not our fault wat;)
anyway training had to do 3 sets 4km..could only do 10 km coz capsize 3 times today..well at least we put in a bit more power n did hard 10s along the shore..find dat i feel better n not so stressed after capsizing coz its like wat the heack capsize redi so juz wack..doesnt matter if we cap again wat..well dats my mentality i guess..
my heels have got blisters..Ouch..though im sure im not the only one..
jin wen(not sure if i've got the name correct) told me n jia dat whenever we cap we muz find out why..i think dats a gd idea..like dat den we can improve on our mistakes
Man my parents made me mad today...told me to go home after training instead of meeting my frenz to eat at seoul garden..to help wif the baking at home den after dat can go geylang to find my clothes..YA RITE(sarcastic)..in the end..got home..the food wasnt nice..finish baking..den my dad told us to go geylang by ourselves den he will fetch later..but by the time i get there the shop dat i want to get my clothes from would have closed lah..WASTE MY NITE FOR NOTHIN!! Argh!!!

1st water prac wif Jia

2004-11-03T22:18:00.000-08:00

ted confirmed dat i'll be rowing k2 wif jia for nationals..so i guess we wont be rowing for SDBA..coz ted said margy n weil be rowing k2 for SDBA..well i noe im not a gd rower..balance wasnt gd juz now..So Frustrating!!! Argh!! so many things to concentrate on!! Balance,kicking,direction,rowing correctly..N i still lack confidence i think..i panick easily when i see the NJC boats in my way, or any other boats as a matter of fact..dragon boats,duck tours,coast guard..i get nervous coz these things would affect my balance.
Ted says i should sit properly in the boat,kick and don follow the boat's motion when it tilts..i hope dat i'll be able to chong all out after fasting..i kinda want to prove dat me n jia can improve quite fast..now a bit afraid dat if i capsize den i'll break my fast but after fasting i really really hope dat i'll be brave enough to juz row contiuously without tapping much..

juz now had oral presentation..it was ok..could ans the qs..they said my oral presentation was gd..hope i'll do well:)

1st water prac wif Jia

2004-11-03T21:52:00.000-08:00

ted confirmed dat i was gonna row k2 wif jia for nationals...but not for SDBA i guess..din realize dat till jia said dat we'll row for nationals but margy n weil will row for SDBA in k2..well it should be the case anyway..i noe dat im not a gd rower..don seem to be improving..still unstable..So Frustrating!!! Argh!! so many things to concentrate on..balance, kicking, direction,right stroke..And i still lack confidence i guess n get panicky when i see boats esp NJC, dragon boat,duck tours or coast guard coz they r sure to create waves and affect my balance..i guess i get distracted and easily nervous by small things..was so worried dat i'd capsize den i wont noe if i've broken my fast a not..hopefully if i cap i'd remember to keep my mouth shut so i wont swallow water..
ted told me to get more catch,sit properly in the boat n don follow the boats motion when it tilts..i guess i'll have to work very hard..hope dat i'll chong real hard after fasting n improve more:)

2nd training

2004-11-01T22:22:00.000-08:00

did 3 sets of gym..haven done a complete 3 set for quite some time..after dat still had circuits..damn shagged dat day..straight away felt very very sleepy and its not the normal sleepy coz not enough sleep..i think its coz of low sugar level in blood..den alredi felt a terrible headache while doing push ups for warm ups but still hang on..did 54321 for both push ups n sit ups..headache still persisted during gym..was very lathargic throughout gym..so sorry margy coz i din really communicate well wif ya coz of the persistent headache..n sorry oso coz din support u during dips..
i thought dat i wont do circuits if there is one after gym..but dunno why the headache wasnt dat bad after gym when it was time for circuits..furthermore i couldnt bring myself to tell ted dat i had a terrible headache throughout gym..redi told him dat i had frequent headaches whenever i did push ups so but i forgot wat he replied..but i din tell him i had headaches during warm ups..
anyway circuits was not bad..i pushed myself esp during last burst n it felt gd..but after dat was damn shagged n the headache persisted..
had tuition after dat n the headache was still there but not as bad..
anyway i din do home training dat nite as well as the day after to rest my head..

First Official Training

2004-10-25T00:22:00.000-07:00

25/10 was our first official training as seniors. Unfortunately i had to came late coz of facilitation session. By the time i came, they had finish 54321, 2km run and pull ups. Man i miss a lot. The gals had also finish 2 sets of gym. I think my strenght deproved.Dunno izzit coz im fasting or mayb coz very long nv train. After gym did circuits..Ha..ha Nadim did it too though initially he din want to but i guess he felt challenged by me when he saw me do..Well i was very tired by the 2nd set n din want to do 3rd set but since Nadim was gonna do, I told myself dat i should complete it too..Felt a bit giddy afterwards n couldnt focus..

I've been getting headaches past few days..mayb since training started..either i use too much mental or coz i needed isotonic drink before training coz my body is not used to training yet..

After debrief, everybody was very very emotional..It was the first time i gave in too my emotions in front of my team mates..I couldn believe dat 2 of my team mates were leaving:(
I thought that there was a way for dem not to quit but after listening to wat they had to say, was then i realize that i had to accept reality dat they r not gonna train,sweat n go thru ups n down wif me anymore..
Judy said dat she had to leave coz her mum wants her to leave the club n even migrate to Australia..Her mum's making things hard for her by forcing her to quit the team though her results were ok..
Delphine has to quit too coz of her results..I know she studied hard for promos..So del, don blame urself for having to leave the team..u din let us down..It breaks my hard when i read ur blog..u had to go thru a lot this week..
It really saddens me when i think abt trainings w/o judy and del anymore..the team seems like falling apart..both guys and gals team..
I thought there's always a way out of parental objections..dat swat Winnie said..but after hearing del's n jude's story..i seriously dunno how they can pursuade their parents to still be in the team..
Nevertheless, like wat Sulyn said..the team still has to go on..As leaders, I have to be strong and not let dem leaving affect me and the team..I remember wat Nick said, nobody is confirmed in the team..u can nv evpect when somebody has to leave the team..
I'll nv forget the trainings we had together Del and Jude..We'll train hard on behalf of u guys and we noe dat even if ur not physically there to support the team, u'll always be in our hearts..
LET'S GO AC!

OpEn HoUsE

2004-10-23T21:20:00.000-07:00

well i noe i haven wrote in for a long long time coz i forgot my blog add..oops!
anyway today was open house..quite a new experinece for me coz din attend a single open house last yr..
in the morn did gym..wah juz do max pull ups n i had a terrible headache..felt like my head being squeezed..mayb use too much mental..mayb not enough sleep or coz body not used to it same as last time..hafta drink isotonic drink before training till my body gets used to it..but now fasting..so how?
somemore ted expects a lot frm us..oh n he said his team mate who was fasting last time followed every training..i hope i can follow too but a bit worried coz so long nv train n ted's training i predict is gonna be damn tough lah..
after gym did land demo..wasnt supposed to do but did anyway coz to prepare myself for future trainings..luckily weather wasn't dat hot:)
wasnt dat many ppl at open house..expected more ppl..(can see by the amnt of sweets we bought)..heard SA gave out nike shoe bag n we..only gave out some M1 notepad or some stuff..mayb dats why AC not many ppl coz most went to SA..
well i better go n wash up n do articles evaluation for pw..sianz ah..

OpEn HoUsE

2004-10-23T05:56:00.000-07:00

he..he i noe i haven wrote in for so so long..well mayb coz i forgot my add..oops
today was open house! kinda new experience for me coz i din attend a single open house last yr...well there wasnt dat many ppl i think..expected more...(well can see frm the amnt of sweets we bought)..i heard SA giving out nike shoe bag! mayb dats why not many came to our open house..
juz now wasnt suppose to do land demo but did it anyway so dat i'll be prepared for real training..luckily the weather was not so hot so it was ok for me..
in the morn did gym..juz do max pull ups n i had a terrible headache..felt like my head being squeezed..either lack of sleep or coz my body not used to it..its the same as last time..nd to drink isotonic drink before training till my body get used to it..but now fasting..so how?
well anyway i better go n shower n do article evaluation..so sianz..i'll try to sleep early..tmw gonna go escape theme park..yeah!

Elections Day!

2004-08-14T07:01:00.000-07:00

ok gonna make dis fast..coz i nd to shower. today we had elections..i still could not make up my mind on who to cast on my last vote..i really really din expect to get vice captain..i was erm kinda zoning out when ted was explaining the role of the 6 exco members coz i thought i wont be in it..furthermore del told me in the morn dat its like redi confirmed who'll be in like shijia weiling margy ben nadim wei zhe..so i was ok wif it..den sulyn reminded me dat an exco juz means dat u get the dirty work n shit first..so i thought to myself it doesnt seem too bad not being an exco after all..but surprise surprise i got a post..i hope dat i'll be able to do a gd job n our exco would be as gd or even better den our seniors..
den i told my parents n they juz ask if i'll be able to cope wif responsibilities n studies..hmph dey din seem to support me..so sad..im very honoured dat i got chosen..im gonna prove to dem dat i can balance training n studies well so i've to work hard for promos frm now on.. well seems like i din make it short..overall i like the exco members n think dat i can work wif dem..k den im signing off..adios:)

eve of national day

2004-08-08T23:40:00.000-07:00

today i went shopping wif my mum though i den really buy anythin except a normal bra..think its the same kind as jude's..anyway we went to wisma before going to lot 1..as we were going to lot 1..i felt very moody..i was suddenly pissed that there wasnt any burger king and the nearest one was near centrepoint..my mum said we could walk there but i said no..i was pissed for dunno wat reason..so my mum suggested going to JP to eat but i kept saying no..i realized that i was alwasy moody when it was time to go back(don need my mum to tell me dat)..i seriously don understand myself..wats wrong wif me..mayb its PMS or mayb its juz me..i think dat if my frenz noe my true self they wont want to be frenz wif me..haiz..the story doesnt end there..after we ate at lot 1 we got home at abt 10..my dad was angry dat we got home late..so my parents sort of quarrelled..so angry wif my dad..he noes dat we were going to lot 1 after wisma so of coz come back late wat..somemore bought food for my family..if he wanted us to get home earlier he should have fetch us from wisma instead of going to orchard when we were going to lot 1..Hmph..k i've to sign off now..better study after slacking the whole day..guess i'll be doing maths again:(

class bbq

2004-08-07T22:00:00.000-07:00

yest 6/8 went to my first class gathering coz din have training..it was fun though my close frenz weren't there so a bit out of place..i ended up bbqing the food..new experience for me..mr keith tan came n a group of us kept toking n toking abt sch stuff..oh ya n he played volleyball too..not bad for a teacher..thought he's whole life revolved arnd maths only..it was quite nice chatting to him...Hmph but in the morn we were supposed to sit for a math test n after putting in a bit of effort studying for it, he cancelled the test!! N he din even tell us till 11 so he made us stay for abt one n a haf hour for nothin! Argh!! i could have studied trigo the nite before during tuition coz there's a test nxt thurs n my trigo sux!!im doomed!! Better go n study now but before that i'll go to the intranet to download the supposedly maths retest that i was supposed to take on fri..

my first write in

2004-07-31T08:49:00.000-07:00

yeah..juz created a blog on my own.had one dat time but forgot the add for the blog redi..dunno if i'll update my blog coz im quite lazy to on the comp..so sorry if my blog isnt updated..